Buddhist Club...goodbye...

yet...
i force 2 say goodbye 2 my buddhist club...
i hving bio tt on wed since april...
tat feeling really nt gud when i miss the buddhist meeting...
bt...i make tiz decision after i really thk 4 long long time...
u noe?
b4 i tt in sri kota...
i hving the tt in inovasi...
n the tt time is start frm 5pm - 7pm...
the time really nt suitable 4 me...
if tat day hving buddhist meeting...
i wil go 4 meeting til 3.30pm...
then after meeting i wil go library 2 do homework...
bt our school library jz open til 4pm then close shop...
after 4pm wat can i do?
no place 4 me 2 sit down peacefully n do my homework...
the only way is wait...
frm 4pm wait til 5 pm then my mum fetch me 2 tt...
after finish tt then my dad wil fetch me home...
u noe my home so far...+ tat time is really had a serious traffic jam...
so normally i wil reach home btw 7.30pm - 8pm...
then hv a bath...n my dinner...near 9pm...
tat time i adi feel so tired...
the schedule is really nt suit 4 me...
the feeling really nt gud 2 wait at sch...
nobody talk 2 me...cant do anything...
who wil noe wat my feeling...
who noe?
so i ask hui ling...
she ask me go sri kota wif her...
bt the tt time is crashing wif my buddhist club meeting time...
i dun hope 2 gv up...
bt academic is more important wat...
then i ask 4 my mum...
my mum ask me 2 do decision myself...
bt aftertat i go 4 tt...
n gv up my buddhist club...

n 2day...
wen yi told me pn foh wan 2 see me...
she is buddhist club teacher adviser...
i really feel so tension after she told me tat...
actually i noe wat she wan 2 say...
cz i din go meeting 4 so long time...
+ im a ajk...
pn foh ask me 5pe see her...
then after i go into the class...
the 1st sentence she ask me is "who r u..."
ish...wat me go see her...
bt ask me who r me...
n my name tag thr writing so big word goh hui shan...
i dun believe she cnt see loh...=.=
ok...nvm...
i told her im goh hui shan...
oohhh~
then she open the koko book...
seaching 4 my name n check 4 my attendance...
huh?wat?
i really faint when i saw tat...
so many 0 thr...n only gt one 1 thr...
teacher ask y i din go meeting 4 almost all the meeting...
then i told her honestly...
i go 4 tt n i only start frm april...
n i sure i had went 4 all the meeting b4 april...
the teacher say huh...
she say my attendance only 1...
i told her again...
i sure i had went 4 meeting...
bt she dun believe me...
u noe wat she say?
she say she never saw me b4 wor...
ish...bt i saw her b4 wor...
if i told her tiz...
i duno wat she respone eh...
she say if i really went 4 the meeting...
the attendance sure wil more than tat...
hw i noe wor...
i gt went 4 meeting bt u gak ngang say me din go...
nvm loh...
i dun care oso...

then she say i holding the post 4 wat if i din go meeting...
then i din say anything...
cz i noe if i tel her according 2 wat my heart feel...
i noe she wil really mad tat time...
she look at my st.john president tag...
then say...
"oohhh~u r president...i noe president should b very busy wan...n u r 5cs1 student...sure a lot homework loh...actually u should nt take any post 4 ur koko...cz u r so busy mah...b ahli biasa better...no nid do so much things wat..."
i look at teacher din say anything...
bt actually i feel like wan 2 cry...
i really hate myself...
then i tel myself...
wat 2 cry...dun cry in front of her...
so i really din cry...
u noe hw hurt when she say tiz...
nt 2 take any post in ur koko...
she wu ru my president post...
ok...nvm...
i tel her straightly i wan 2 quit frm buddhist club...
then she smile n say "ok...gud..."
=.= feel like wan 2 beat her...
feel nt gud 2 stay in tiz class...
i wan her 2 lost frm my eye sight...
then i sign bside my name...
b4 i leave...she say...
"hui shan...u should join some koko tat wont crash wif the meeting...n dun b ajk le...ahli biasa enough..."
wat the @#$#$@$
then i guat her...
"thank u teacher..."

then i leave the class...
jz step out frm the class...
then i cried...
really hate myself...
i cried...nt bcz of teacher...
is 4 buddhist club...
since i was standard 3...
i had join buddhist club until form 5...
bt bcz of spm...
i nid 2 put everything down...
goodbye...buddhist club...
goodbye...shi fu...
n goodbye...pn foh...